O.k I am not above lurking around facebook searching out ol friends or ex-boyfriends ,in fact isn't that what you are supposed to do ? I and many other of my friends have found each other in this way.So after trolling around for a few years I find an old boyfriend from like almost 30 yrs ago I have to admit that I shamelessly looked for him in paid on line searches and everything then one day I type his shortened name into the search bar and there he is on Fb his picture pops up ! I almost die ! So I immediately send a friends request,only to notice seconds later that there is a picture of a woman with him in his profile pic .oops ! He is married ,but ..I am engaged to a wonderful man so no big deal right ? Wrong I leave a little message in his inbox just alerting him to who it is and how we were connected ,just in-case he forgot me .And then I call my sister ,tell her and go to this guys profile like every day ,then I start lurking on his wife's page just to see if he has been on line .I am starting to become obsessed with this person accepting my friends request.Then like two weeks later he accepts ! yay ! I am soo elated but then it dawned on me she might be keeping track of everything he is doing .So we send jokes back and forth like each others pictures and so on ,then just yesterday he posts a you tube video and the comment is I know someone who remembers this ,I couldn't believe it ! He was referring to me ! my heart raced he was liking all of my posts and I was secretly thrilled .Then later that night he starts to chat with me !we talk for a few I explain how it is that I found him ,he lets me know he isn't avoiding me he remembers allot too.If he all of a sudden goes off line it is because his wife has walked into the room .then my computer goes ape shit ! It is just like when we were younger are parents tried everything to keep us apart and now my fn internet is trying to do the same ! now it seems just as it was before lol stolen moments .I honestly do not want to try and break this guys marriage up nor do I want to ruin my relationship with the guy I am with i just want to catch up see ,what he has been doing for the past 30 yrs ,It is hard to forget your first love ,even harder to forget when it seemed like everyone and the whole world was against you at the time,and since he set the standard for every man I would fall for for the rest of my life I wanted to know how he turned out ! and thought maybe he would want to know what has been going on in my life as well .He is by far my favorite bad boy of all :) so I found my self writing in his chat box are you happy? then I deleted it and never sent it .I think that that may have been a bit too much to ask
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