Everyday I log in just to look at your face .I have come to realize that we are two very different people than we were so many years ago .Yet still I keep thinking nothing has changed .You tell me all of those feelings are there but are they? I just don't know any more .Why do we do this to ourselves ? Why does anybody do this to themselves what is it we hope to accomplish by this pining away for long lost loves like it is going to make our lives any better? I can understand wanting to know what someone has been up to for years but what I don't understand is how we keep on expecting someone to drop what ever it is they are doing to just jump right back into your life .Sadly I am one of those people hanging on to an old love using the excuse we never got closure .When really there was closure the day that you two separated.All of the it isn't fair . I just do not get how one can expect someone to rearrange ones new life to go back 30 yrs ,and yet I still do this .People come and go in and out of your life and if your lucky enough those people that go will come round again and you can reconnect on an adult level and reminisce and remain friends with out having to feel the need to cling to past emotions .Sure old feelings may surface and some things may sting ,but in all you should be happy for the way the other persons life turned out and share the joy in the new life they have made for themselves .Only a loser lives in the past my father always said ,don't hold grudges and never try and make sense of things that have long since past.Just be truly grateful that these people have decided to let you back into their life and rejoice in the happiness that they have found in their own life
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