So yesterday I had a chance to talk to an old friend for the first time in nearly 21 yrs ,I can in contact with this person via another friend whom I talk to on a regular. basis. I was given a phone number and called it left a message I got voice mail .The next Day or so I get a text from them.We text back and forth for a bit and I tell them I will call them tomorrow .So I called as promised .You see this person and I had a very brief but intense relationship for two years when I was very young .They said they needed to talk and that it was very emotional for them so we talked ,and they apologized for the way they treated me they way we left things and he felt horrible for the things that had occurred .While crying the whole time they ,had said that after all these years they finally had closure. .......I explained to them that these were choices they made back then and that put us where we were today ,they talked about do-overs and all kinds of things .I also told them that I had forgiven t along time ago .Either way the choices we made and the actions that we took was something both of had blame in .While it was good to hear from them and now we will be able to keep in touch I knew some how deep inside the real reason that they wanted me to call ws .yes for closure but also to mend themselves .I realize that it was mostly about their own self needs and their own conscious to feel better about their self .I on the other hand took it in stride (or so I thought ) listened and acted and said it was in the past and I was happy they were able to get some closure and move forward with their life.But today I am some how ticked that they made it about them .I am by no means angry or bitter or jaded ,I am truly happy for them .I just don't like feeling the way I do right now .It's like listening to someone work a 12 step program and I was the apology letter /
