The story of us

So I sit here in my living room browsing along on Facebook .When I come across ed ,well should I say that I searched a Fb page of someone who means the entire world to me and has been very dear to my heart for 15 yrs . Seems this someones ex made them a F.B page . Of course I already knew that . As said person does not have a fb page . or even uses the Internet.anyways long story short first said person had no pictures on said fb page now pictures of him and his ex wife fill the page .When they were not there before .Wondering just what was really going on and why all of a sudden this person feels the need to let me know who she is and what her connection to this person is ? Wondering if I should write a letter to the love of my life or message the ex wife?Or should I say soon to be ex wife? As he informs me they have been separated for 2 yrs . She how ever just recently split with her boyfriend who she says beat her . She has been living north in Clarks with him for a while now not sure where it is she is from or how he met her but she is how ever 25 yrs younger than him.He says he wants a sober woman and  I can give him that .She says he is a nutty asshole and I understand that as I have known him almost half of my life .Both of his ex wives lol i know . I think that this is just too much for my brain to handle .He wants me North I want to be with him but need to know my children (even though they r grown) r safe .I do not understand my attraction or my need to be with this person .I have no clue as to why he has this freaking hold over my heart .Maybe I need serious mental help lol Idk anymore .All I do know is i honestly love this person long to be with him every single day.From the moment I met him all I ever wanted to do was belong to him .

and as I sit here contemplating my freaking life ? I am like wtf really ?People piss me off my boyfriend (fiancee) what ever you want to call him is sooo damn judgmental of every one in my life he is quick to point the finger quick to judge and quick to point out all the faults of everyone I love or care about.I know this may sound petty or immature but really I can't take this anymore.I just want to be left the fuck alone .I know I have faults I know I am not perfect,so dont freaking judge me .He has no children of his own nor does he want any (so he says).I am a bad parent for letting one of my children drop outta school (i have three)Said child is way too smart to put up with uneducated teachers crap.They do not want toteach the right way he calls them out on it and the public looks at me and says why cant you do anything with this child lock him up and throw away the key he is no good .I say B.S. he is bright intelligent and wise way beyond his years,challenge him ,he will be interested.Grant it I live in he one state ranked lowest on the scale for public education but still we are trusting these people with the future of our children. My tax dollars pay for you to get a pay check ,so therefore you should do what is expected of you and teach ,not because you have to but because you want to. as far as athe ol man goes well I havem slowly come to realize that this relationship is a lost cause.Nothing I do or say is good enough and more is always expected of me .I can'y give anymore I am done empty and just want to be left alone .Please don't be so quick to judge me unless you have stood in my shoes.I am a real person just like anyone else I think I feel I breathe I cry just like every other human being on this planet .So if I come across as crass or rude eff you I am who I am and not your or anyone else is going to change me .GOD made me this way for a reason deal with it

and so yet again another tragic death of one of my sons friends caused by drinking and driving.As always they blame the driver who killed his girlfriend and the love of his life never mind that she made the choice to get into the vehicle with him.Dont get me wrong I in no way condone drinking and driving ,but I cannot tolerate the people who judge him for his actions .while she is gone he has to wake up every day for the rest of his life and live with the fact that he killed someone he truly loved.People are quick to judge and point the finger at the survivor in these cases.When we need to look at who the person was that provided the underage drinkers with their acohol.Why is it o.k for us to provide underage people with acohol and then blast them for drinking and driving when its the older people that provide them with the acohol that they drink?Should we point the finger at the person who provided them with the acohol and blame them?They would not be drinking and driving underage if the of age person provided them with the acohol.Shame on you for beating down the minor child who was givin the acohol by the leagal adult!

I just don't understand today's youth.I mean i realize its a generational thing.And that we aren't suppose to understand them.But I coming from a very laid back upbringing should be able to get these kids to come to some sort of compromise with each other.they scream they fight they throw things they argue with me about who should go to their room who should shut the fuck up leave each other alone its like www 3 at my house 24-7 and I get no relief and no help from the person who is suppose to be helping me raise these kids.i feel like climbing under a rock and staying there.I know that parents are suppose to love their children unconditionally but do we have to like them as well.ts not my fault they are growing up to be snotty ingrates that nobody will want to be around .i don't even remember fighting this much with my own sister it really does disturb me.I don't like feeling like this about my own children but I cant stand them.

Birthdays r just another day for you to find one more wrinkle

Another year older one more wrinkle oh look I found a dimple sadly its on my ass I don't care how much you work out how much you spend on wrinkle creams you cant slow down the signs of ageing.I believe that when my cute adorable children became teenagers my looks quickly began to fade.Of course I realized that things were going to sag and droop but whats up with the bingo arms ?It just seems so sad that I cant stop it .Maybe if I had my own personal makeup artist,or some magical way to airbrush away all of my flaws!But honestly we all must do this ageing thing.So chalk up one more year,one more wrinkle,one more damn dimple maybe by next year I can make a minature golf course outta my ass and use my crows feet as a roadmap.and my flabby back arms as sales on my new boat.

OMG what a train wreck

These last 2 weeks have been total hell moving my house( literally)watching some drunk moron ruin my water line ,my roof collapse ,my internet and my cable get ripped outta the ground old,old people everywhere who dont seem to understand that we live in the freaking boonies and u cant just call someone to come fix it cause certain services are not available here and why dont you do this and why didnt you say so before,blah blah blah ,My 15 yr old son was the only one who made sense just let them do it mom you cant tell them anything their gonna do exactly what you dont want because you told them what you want.What ever people seem to be exstremely stupid here in the great southeast.I do think that the only reason that I stay here is because i feel like a real genius:)Honestly though the having to constantly explain my every move and ,my every action is ridiculous.I dont owe anyone an explanation I want my shit put back right like it was before not when you feel like it or just because you think I dont need something.I will not allow people to treat me like a third class citzian just because i am a forginer to their state.So what if I am from California not from Louisiana.I am not trash,I am not a freak,I am a normal human being probably alot smarter than these coonass backwards inbred cajun fucks!

Wtf is up with celebrity rehab sober house u set rule 4 adults like their children you make them write lines like my sons 9th grade class does 4 punish work.and why would you put bitter ass Heidi Fleiss in the same house as Tom seizmore?This is a accident waiting to happen And truley Heidi and the house mom need to hook up and get over it they both need to get laid .Lonley miserable bitches .These people truley need help so why treat them like children?At least they were mature enough to admit that they need help and were strong enough to admit it to them selves and others.I understand the meaning of tuff love ,but if you can acknowledge that some is dopesick and needs the help why would you throw them out knowing that that they r on the verge of useing she needs to find a better way to deal with these people they need serious help and she knows this so get of your fucking high horse suck it up be a woman and not some candy ass bitch and do your damn job dont create more drama 4 these people then they need.I know she does this 4 raitings but r your shows raitings more important than someones life?